Two Steps Behind

This world is full of surprises. As humans, we are foolish and ambitious. We make mistakes that automatically put us in this direction to the other. Sometimes we lose the sense of right and wrong. More often than not, people choose to do wrong just for the right cause. Morals fading, the things that inspires us most, we often neglect. It hurts to know what the world is becoming as of late. All these negativity surrounding the places we walk upon, and lucky me that I stumbled upon something unusual. Life gave me a new direction and I'm sorry to say but it was you. Everything shined a little bit brighter than yesterday. Food had more flavour. Rain to me seemed like falling rays from the sun providing something different. Waking up in the morning smiling as if no wrong is happening to the world. This magical experience you cast upon me with your waving hand, your smile ever so sweet, and lets not forget your eyes, that shines brighter than the moon and the stars. I'm sure you wouldn't believe that all of this started with a stare.

Thinking about how to put into words or actions the gratitude and love that I want to give you, it seems so impossible. You may not see me like the way I see you. I don't want to bore you with anything about me. So I'm often speechless yet happy when I'm around you. You in my sight is already enough to last me a day. Someday, I will say to you personally, thank you. Thank you for letting me experience this long lost emotion of love. 

To me, you're the most beautiful girl I've set my eyes upon so far. You live simply on your beliefs and morals. Down to earth and humble. Clueless at some points, but it just makes me want you more. The voice I try to remember every night before I go to bed. The laughter I dream of sharing with you. Kind and compassionate, yet you hide your feelings. Those feelings I try to locate within you, are very well buried. I don't know why I keep on going. The curses I get from you are like the compliments I give you. Why do I love you so? Strange, I thought I threw love away, down into a deep trench. That is the beauty of living. Nothing is ever dead and my love for you won't certainly die. Sometimes I am scared of you. And I can't even explain why. You are mysterious. I will never know how far I need to go to make you to flint a spark for us. Well, as you said, "love knows no distance." But always remember, love me or not, I am always two steps behind.

So please stay for awhile. Help me to love you more because I don't want to stop.

Soul Bound and Peace

Does anybody really know how the soul works anymore? Have you ever thought that when you experience heart break, that it is your soul that is hurting and not your heart? I am writing this blog to give you what I think is the definition of our souls.

For this matter, we have two parties of singular presence. People will understand more if I put this in the form of love experience. 

Man and woman. Two different entities but on equal plain of existence. We have this program in our body and mind called emotion. Emotion reacts to something either positive or negative. I thought of it as a flaw because of the misuse of people. Basically, one after the other, the man falls in love with a woman of his preferential taste. This is where those two unconsciously give an affirmation to exchange the peace instilled within their souls therefore being dependent of his/her partner. Now what's wrong with that scenario is that every aspect of living now depends on the actions and emotions of the partner. The sense of individuality is slowly decreasing due to the fact that they are "one" so to speak. What if the one you unconsciously given your soul decided to cut it off? The peace that was once so independent, now turns to pain and anguish. Either the man or the woman can opt out of the agreement of the relationship because one of them can cancel emotion for anything or anyone for a short period of time. Another reason is that the emotion felt to the past partner is now being reciprocated entire to a new entity. You feel down and everything around you starts to remind you of your past relationship. That is because your soul lost it's individuality thus it craves for the longing of the relationship. The emotions expressed are all wasted and now you feel like nothing. Your soul is now damaged thus creating a chain reaction to your being. You don't feel like eating. You can't sleep. If you do sleep, you are having nightmares. Songs seem sadder when you listen to them. 

The soul works because you move and feel something as a independent person. Our soul like us humans, hunger as well. Feeding your soul gives it energy. This is your aura. Energy emitted through one's soul. It is tied with emotions that gives colour and vigour to life itself. Good deeds are food for the soul. Happiness being an experience is the best way to fill your soul. 

I advice you, my readers, to feed your souls and not let negative emotion hinder your aura to becoming to it's true state of rainbow. Let inner peace stay within you!